So...
No surprise- my life has been insanely busy lately. I hate that I'm not able to dedicate as much time to blogging or reading blogs recently. And truthfully, the perfectionist inside of me is always switching back and forth between feeling incredibly guilty and questioning whether I should even continue blogging.
Don't freak- I don't want to quit blogging but it's just that I feel like I'm just not the blogger I used to be- that my topics aren't as interesting and that since I can't be the dedicated fully committed blogger that I once was (when I was able to blog and read blogs pretty much all day at work), that I'm a disappointment to those who have been reading my blog since the beginning as well as to all the new readers who I just haven't had the chance to get to know the way that I was able to a few months ago.
Not sure why I'm even writing all of this but it's important for me to stay honest throughout this journey and the last thing that I would ever to with you all is feel like I'm being fake; and I'm not- I guess I'm just saying that I haven't just forgotten about blogging and I'm certainly still pursuing my goal of losing 100lbs this year- just been super busy.
I'm going to move forward with the plan that I put in place last month of blogging every other day and reading blogs the day's in between. If there has been one thing being on this journey to health has taught me it is that you prioritize that which is important to you and the truth is- this blog is important to me so I need to make it a bit more of a priority.
So there. I'm not going to harp on this anymore- just wanted to say "sorry" and that I'm still super thankful and dedicated to this amazing community.
And now on to some very cool business- I'm pumped that it's the end of the month because that means it's time to evaluate how I did on my April goals, do my monthly measurements, and set new goals for the month ahead so I'll be sharing all that good stuff in the next few days!
Cross your fingers with me because on Sunday I weighed in at 305lbs and that is what my goal for the end of April is so I'm hoping that when I weigh in tomorrow (since it's the final day of April), that I won't have gained anything. Secretly, I'm thinking that I've lost some weight- my body is changing big time and it's becoming more and more noticeable to me. VERY exciting!
And now, I'm off to watch some Survivor and catch up on your blogs!
You'll hear from me tomorrow friends :)
Thursday, 29 April 2010
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
Day #115, #116, & #117: Mixin' it up!
I really am a creature of habit. I have absolutely no problem eating the same thing for breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day...well I've never tried it really, but I do eat the same things A LOT.
Lately, however- I have been trying quite a few new products that I flippin' LOVE so I figured I'd share with you all!
First New Love: Naked Juice- Green Machine!
Now I've tried many of the other Naked Juice brands drinks that are more fruit based but the "Green Monster" has always been the one flavor that I've shied away from- primarily because when reading the ingredients list I came across words like: blue green algae, spinach, broccoli, and garlic... I was a bit skeptical about how appetizing this drink would actually be. Can you blame me? Well...to my utter shock and suprise- this drink is fabulous! Despite it's vegetablly (you like that word?? lol) contents, it doesn't taste like veggies at all- the taste is really more like kiwi and apples- YUM! Now, I should provide a word of caution- this drink really works better as a meal replacement (at least in my opinion) and definitely not something to do everyday, but it's something I like to work into my diet if, for example I know I'll be having a heavy dinner so I'll have a Naked juice for lunch. If you drink the entire bottle of this flavor naked juice the nutrition facts will look something like: 260 calories, 0g fat, 30mg sodium, 880g potassium, 64 carbs, 2g fiber, 50g sugar (ouch!), and 2g protein. Like I said, maybe not good for the everyday, but certainly not a horrible choice either! In fact, each bottle of Naked juice contains at least a pound of fruit in every bottle! Saweeet!
Second New Love: Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk!
Ok, so no doubt if you've been reading weight loss blogs for any amount of time you've probably heard of this stuff and up until last week I hadn't gotten around to giving it a shot, but now I can say that all of the fuss is indeed true- this stuff= AMAZING. First off- don't be confused- this isn't non fat milk or even soy milk, it's almond milk; meaning it is a milk substitute made from ground almonds! And unlike animal milk, almond milk contains no cholesterol or lactose, and is completely vegan. This miracle milk has only 40 calories per serving as compared to the 90-100 calories per serving that I was getting with non-fat milk. And to top it all off- this stuff taste SO good. I've been using it with my cereal (Special K Vanilla Almond), as well as in my oatmeal (High Fiber Maple and Brown Sugar) and it is just so much creamier than regular milk. Seriously, I would have a hard time believing that anyone who tries this stuff wouldn't like it- PLUS it's cheaper than regular milk- I picked up a carton the other day for $2.80 or so!
Third New Love: Sam's Club Bruschetta!
No lie- this stuff is amazing. I probably use this at least once a day and sometimes twice. Tomatoe/garlic stuff is right up my alley and I love that it is premade and I can just scoop it onto stuff and it's already ready to go! Plus it's SO low calorie and is packed with tons of flavor! In fact, I even topped my breakfast sandwhich with it the other day...
I'm all about keeping things SIMPLE and this is one of the most simple and usable grocery items in my fridge! Love it!
So folks, there you have it- 3 new items that will be making a regular appearance on my daily menu!
Have you all tried any of these products? What did you think? Any new "loves" of your own?
Peace out girl scouts!
Lately, however- I have been trying quite a few new products that I flippin' LOVE so I figured I'd share with you all!
First New Love: Naked Juice- Green Machine!
Now I've tried many of the other Naked Juice brands drinks that are more fruit based but the "Green Monster" has always been the one flavor that I've shied away from- primarily because when reading the ingredients list I came across words like: blue green algae, spinach, broccoli, and garlic... I was a bit skeptical about how appetizing this drink would actually be. Can you blame me? Well...to my utter shock and suprise- this drink is fabulous! Despite it's vegetablly (you like that word?? lol) contents, it doesn't taste like veggies at all- the taste is really more like kiwi and apples- YUM! Now, I should provide a word of caution- this drink really works better as a meal replacement (at least in my opinion) and definitely not something to do everyday, but it's something I like to work into my diet if, for example I know I'll be having a heavy dinner so I'll have a Naked juice for lunch. If you drink the entire bottle of this flavor naked juice the nutrition facts will look something like: 260 calories, 0g fat, 30mg sodium, 880g potassium, 64 carbs, 2g fiber, 50g sugar (ouch!), and 2g protein. Like I said, maybe not good for the everyday, but certainly not a horrible choice either! In fact, each bottle of Naked juice contains at least a pound of fruit in every bottle! Saweeet!Second New Love: Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk!
Ok, so no doubt if you've been reading weight loss blogs for any amount of time you've probably heard of this stuff and up until last week I hadn't gotten around to giving it a shot, but now I can say that all of the fuss is indeed true- this stuff= AMAZING. First off- don't be confused- this isn't non fat milk or even soy milk, it's almond milk; meaning it is a milk substitute made from ground almonds! And unlike animal milk, almond milk contains no cholesterol or lactose, and is completely vegan. This miracle milk has only 40 calories per serving as compared to the 90-100 calories per serving that I was getting with non-fat milk. And to top it all off- this stuff taste SO good. I've been using it with my cereal (Special K Vanilla Almond), as well as in my oatmeal (High Fiber Maple and Brown Sugar) and it is just so much creamier than regular milk. Seriously, I would have a hard time believing that anyone who tries this stuff wouldn't like it- PLUS it's cheaper than regular milk- I picked up a carton the other day for $2.80 or so!Third New Love: Sam's Club Bruschetta!
No lie- this stuff is amazing. I probably use this at least once a day and sometimes twice. Tomatoe/garlic stuff is right up my alley and I love that it is premade and I can just scoop it onto stuff and it's already ready to go! Plus it's SO low calorie and is packed with tons of flavor! In fact, I even topped my breakfast sandwhich with it the other day...
I'm all about keeping things SIMPLE and this is one of the most simple and usable grocery items in my fridge! Love it!So folks, there you have it- 3 new items that will be making a regular appearance on my daily menu!
Have you all tried any of these products? What did you think? Any new "loves" of your own?
Peace out girl scouts!
Sunday, 25 April 2010
Day #112, #113, & #114: I DO have clavicles!!! :)_
Hi Kiddos!
So first of all, it's weigh in day! I was pretty much anticipating a gain or at least a maintenance week after last week's B.I.G loss and turns out, I was right...
Last Week's Weight: 304
This Week's Weight: 305
Result: +1lb
I'm truthfully not very upset about the gain, like I said- big loss weeks are usually followed by...not so big loss weeks :)
Don't have a lot of time today so I figured I just share some highlights from the week:
* I had about 3 pretty killer workouts! I've consistently been able to do 30 minutes on the elliptical; I can't even tell you how suprised I still am by that; I remember when I first started working out, I thought it would be close to a year before I was able to do 30 minutes! It's definitely been one of my proudest accomplishments thus far- can't you see that twinkle in my eyes??? ;)
* So I can't go into a lot of details, but let's just say that I may or may not have a lil' crushypoo on a friend of mine and this week that "special friend" told me twice that he thought I looked great and could tell I've lost weight! I can't even tell you how great that made me feel.
* So let's just say that bones are popping out of my body- in a GREAT way! It seems that anyone who has ever been overweight can sympathize with wondering if they even have a collar bone (aka- a clavicle bone) and lately mine has been making an appearance! Whoo hoo!
All of these things make for a smiley Tiffany! :)
So first of all, it's weigh in day! I was pretty much anticipating a gain or at least a maintenance week after last week's B.I.G loss and turns out, I was right...
Last Week's Weight: 304
This Week's Weight: 305
Result: +1lb
I'm truthfully not very upset about the gain, like I said- big loss weeks are usually followed by...not so big loss weeks :)
Don't have a lot of time today so I figured I just share some highlights from the week:
* I had about 3 pretty killer workouts! I've consistently been able to do 30 minutes on the elliptical; I can't even tell you how suprised I still am by that; I remember when I first started working out, I thought it would be close to a year before I was able to do 30 minutes! It's definitely been one of my proudest accomplishments thus far- can't you see that twinkle in my eyes??? ;)
* So I can't go into a lot of details, but let's just say that I may or may not have a lil' crushypoo on a friend of mine and this week that "special friend" told me twice that he thought I looked great and could tell I've lost weight! I can't even tell you how great that made me feel.
* So let's just say that bones are popping out of my body- in a GREAT way! It seems that anyone who has ever been overweight can sympathize with wondering if they even have a collar bone (aka- a clavicle bone) and lately mine has been making an appearance! Whoo hoo!All of these things make for a smiley Tiffany! :)
Wednesday, 21 April 2010
Day #110 & #111: Grocery Store Diaries
Hey Kids!
So it's actually been awhile since I've shared exactly what it is that I'm eating and what "plan" I follow- and since I had a follower ask that I elaborate on the subject, I intend to do that with my next few posts...so be sure to stay tuned! :)
Well on the subject of food, yesterday I was in dire need of a trip to the grocery store and I decided that it was a prime opportunity to check out the grocery store that so so many swear by as being the healthy food mecca- Whole Foods. In case you have never been for a visit to Whole Foods, it's basically a pretty sweet grocery store entirely dedicated to organic foods. Well, I hadn't ever actually gotten a chance to go since beginning this journey and since I have some crazy affinity for grocery shopping, I was pretty much beside myself! I usually buy most of my groceries from the beloved Trader Joe's, but I'm always up for some change!
Look, I even took a picture of the outside of the store on my way in! lol
The verdict? Sorely disappointed!!!
Seriously!! Can you believe that I actually walked out of the store with nothing!?
First off, everything there is RIDICULOUSLY overpriced! Seriously, a small container of hummus that costs almost $5, an $2 advocado, $8 peanut butter? I mean, I know that it supposedly costs more because it is organic and sometimes gluten free, but I truthfully just don't really care enough about that stuff enough to cause me to pay double (or triple) the amount that I would pay anywhere else! I was literally in shock of how much more people are paying for the items there! At Trader Joes, I find that almost everything is reasonably priced, most of it even cheaper than what I find at the regular grocery store (which here in PA, happens to be Giant Eagle) lol. You still get cool, creative, healthy food at TJ's without paying a high status price.
Secondly, everytime I go to TJ's I am in awe of how nice all of the crew members are! Seriously, they are always so pleasant and helpful and the employees of Whole Foods were snobby and acted like you pretty much didn't exist. And maybe I'm being stupid but it seemed like even the customers were kind of...hoity toity...it was weird in general.
So, in short- this girl will be sticking with Trader Joes! :)
What do you guys think? Are ya'll big Whole Foods fans? Any faithful TJ'ers out there?
So it's actually been awhile since I've shared exactly what it is that I'm eating and what "plan" I follow- and since I had a follower ask that I elaborate on the subject, I intend to do that with my next few posts...so be sure to stay tuned! :)
Well on the subject of food, yesterday I was in dire need of a trip to the grocery store and I decided that it was a prime opportunity to check out the grocery store that so so many swear by as being the healthy food mecca- Whole Foods. In case you have never been for a visit to Whole Foods, it's basically a pretty sweet grocery store entirely dedicated to organic foods. Well, I hadn't ever actually gotten a chance to go since beginning this journey and since I have some crazy affinity for grocery shopping, I was pretty much beside myself! I usually buy most of my groceries from the beloved Trader Joe's, but I'm always up for some change!
Look, I even took a picture of the outside of the store on my way in! lol
The verdict? Sorely disappointed!!!
Seriously!! Can you believe that I actually walked out of the store with nothing!?
First off, everything there is RIDICULOUSLY overpriced! Seriously, a small container of hummus that costs almost $5, an $2 advocado, $8 peanut butter? I mean, I know that it supposedly costs more because it is organic and sometimes gluten free, but I truthfully just don't really care enough about that stuff enough to cause me to pay double (or triple) the amount that I would pay anywhere else! I was literally in shock of how much more people are paying for the items there! At Trader Joes, I find that almost everything is reasonably priced, most of it even cheaper than what I find at the regular grocery store (which here in PA, happens to be Giant Eagle) lol. You still get cool, creative, healthy food at TJ's without paying a high status price.
Secondly, everytime I go to TJ's I am in awe of how nice all of the crew members are! Seriously, they are always so pleasant and helpful and the employees of Whole Foods were snobby and acted like you pretty much didn't exist. And maybe I'm being stupid but it seemed like even the customers were kind of...hoity toity...it was weird in general.
So, in short- this girl will be sticking with Trader Joes! :)
What do you guys think? Are ya'll big Whole Foods fans? Any faithful TJ'ers out there?
Monday, 19 April 2010
Day #108 & #109: A Weird Weigh In
T'was a weird weigh-in indeed...but a FANTASTICALLY weird weigh-in!
Why was it weird do you ask? Well, since when does not going to the gym 1 time the whole week= a 7lb loss?!? MMmmmm hmmm.
Since I knew that I wouldn't be making it to the gym very much last week I was sure to weigh myself numerous times so that if the scale did start to creep up I would know to be extra careful with my food intake, and surely all week long the scale keep dipping lower and lower and lower.
Isn't it just a kicker that on the weeks that we push it SO hard in the gym we can see little or no improvement on the scale, but then a week comes where you aren't able to work out at all and then experience a humongously awesome loss like this!? Ahhh..I'm not even gonna try and figure this one out- but I should mention that I did eat pretty darn flawlessly all week. I'm just accepting it with joy :)
I really can't tell you how much I needed this weigh in- not because I haven't had one like it in a while, but because I was almost beginning to believe that my body was broken or something and that I was never going to weigh any less than 312- but this proved to me that my body IS cooperating and changing!
Last Week's Weigh In: 311lbs
This Week's Weigh In: 304lbs
Meaning...total pounds lost thus far= 48lbs!!!
Wowzer. I. am. HAPPY :) I cannot believe that I am only 2lbs away from losing 50lbs (my half way mark) and even CRAZIER is that I'm only 4lbs away from being under 300- which is something I still have a hard time believing will ever happen.
One foot in front of the other :)
Thanks for continuing to follow me along this journey!
Why was it weird do you ask? Well, since when does not going to the gym 1 time the whole week= a 7lb loss?!? MMmmmm hmmm.
Since I knew that I wouldn't be making it to the gym very much last week I was sure to weigh myself numerous times so that if the scale did start to creep up I would know to be extra careful with my food intake, and surely all week long the scale keep dipping lower and lower and lower.
Isn't it just a kicker that on the weeks that we push it SO hard in the gym we can see little or no improvement on the scale, but then a week comes where you aren't able to work out at all and then experience a humongously awesome loss like this!? Ahhh..I'm not even gonna try and figure this one out- but I should mention that I did eat pretty darn flawlessly all week. I'm just accepting it with joy :)
I really can't tell you how much I needed this weigh in- not because I haven't had one like it in a while, but because I was almost beginning to believe that my body was broken or something and that I was never going to weigh any less than 312- but this proved to me that my body IS cooperating and changing!
Last Week's Weigh In: 311lbs
This Week's Weigh In: 304lbs
Meaning...total pounds lost thus far= 48lbs!!!
Wowzer. I. am. HAPPY :) I cannot believe that I am only 2lbs away from losing 50lbs (my half way mark) and even CRAZIER is that I'm only 4lbs away from being under 300- which is something I still have a hard time believing will ever happen.
One foot in front of the other :)
Thanks for continuing to follow me along this journey!
Thursday, 15 April 2010
Day: #103-#107: Updates from this week!
Whew!
WHAT.A.WEEK! As you all know I started my new job about 3 weeks ago and my first 2 weeks were spent in training so this was my first week on my own and daaaaaang was it busy! Like seriously- yesterday I sat down at my desk at 7:00 am and didn't even eat lunch till 3:30! I'm not complaining- it beats being bored any day, but wow- it was an adjustment and has definitely put a funk in my blogging!
WHAT.A.WEEK! As you all know I started my new job about 3 weeks ago and my first 2 weeks were spent in training so this was my first week on my own and daaaaaang was it busy! Like seriously- yesterday I sat down at my desk at 7:00 am and didn't even eat lunch till 3:30! I'm not complaining- it beats being bored any day, but wow- it was an adjustment and has definitely put a funk in my blogging!
But- I've definitely missed you all and I've missed blogging- no need to fear though- eating wise, I've done better this week than I have in a long time- mostly because I've been too tired or busy to eat though lol.
Here's some highlights from the past couple of days:
- Update #1: I gave brussels sprouts a second chance...and guess what??? I liked them! I know I'll probably get some flack because of this but the first time I tried them I bought them fresh and baked em in the oven and...I just wasn't impressed. So when I saw this baby at the grocery store the other day, you'll understand why I was a little wary:
Especially because I knew that since they are cooked in "butter sauce" (wtf?!) lol I knew it probably wouldn't be very healthy. Well, as you can see on the box the serving portion is only 60 cals and guess what? They were DELICIOUS! Most of the advice that I had gotten about cooking them fresh said not to cook them to the point of "mushiness" but these were mushy and I really liked that compared to the crispy ones! They even made a few guest dinner appearances this week:
So, to each his own but I'm definitely excited to be making brussels a part of my meal repetoire!
- Update #2: I walked at least 8 miles yesterday! Yea, seriously! Last night me and my team from church were passing out fliers in our community for our upcoming service this weekend and we started at 6:30 and didn't stop until 11:30pm! Lots of hills, steps, and just plain walking! Here's a pic my roomate snapped of me...can you tell I'm exhausted!?! :)
Hahaha yea- I'm dog tired today, but that's ok because I haven't been able to make it to the gym 1 time this week; and I do mean "I HAVEN'T been able to." My own personal gym rule is that if there is ANY way that I can go, then I go- and I've only broken that rule maybe 2 times in the past 3 1/2 months so I have just been making sure that my eating is spot on and I've probably done better in this past week nutrition wise than I have in a lonng time. Yay!
Alright, and I think that's about it for me- I promise not to go on a crazy 5 day no blogging haieatous again! lol
See you on Sunday for weigh in day! :)
Here's some highlights from the past couple of days:
- Update #1: I gave brussels sprouts a second chance...and guess what??? I liked them! I know I'll probably get some flack because of this but the first time I tried them I bought them fresh and baked em in the oven and...I just wasn't impressed. So when I saw this baby at the grocery store the other day, you'll understand why I was a little wary:
Especially because I knew that since they are cooked in "butter sauce" (wtf?!) lol I knew it probably wouldn't be very healthy. Well, as you can see on the box the serving portion is only 60 cals and guess what? They were DELICIOUS! Most of the advice that I had gotten about cooking them fresh said not to cook them to the point of "mushiness" but these were mushy and I really liked that compared to the crispy ones! They even made a few guest dinner appearances this week:
So, to each his own but I'm definitely excited to be making brussels a part of my meal repetoire!- Update #2: I walked at least 8 miles yesterday! Yea, seriously! Last night me and my team from church were passing out fliers in our community for our upcoming service this weekend and we started at 6:30 and didn't stop until 11:30pm! Lots of hills, steps, and just plain walking! Here's a pic my roomate snapped of me...can you tell I'm exhausted!?! :)
Hahaha yea- I'm dog tired today, but that's ok because I haven't been able to make it to the gym 1 time this week; and I do mean "I HAVEN'T been able to." My own personal gym rule is that if there is ANY way that I can go, then I go- and I've only broken that rule maybe 2 times in the past 3 1/2 months so I have just been making sure that my eating is spot on and I've probably done better in this past week nutrition wise than I have in a lonng time. Yay!Alright, and I think that's about it for me- I promise not to go on a crazy 5 day no blogging haieatous again! lol
See you on Sunday for weigh in day! :)
Monday, 12 April 2010
Day #101 & #102: Weigh In & N-O spells...
Hey Kids!
One of the greatest things about this journey is how much you truly learn about yourself. Sure, you are bound (and supposed to) learn what triggers you to binge and why you became overweight in the first place, but there are SO many other lessons learned along the way as well. I've read many blogs by people who have learned on this journey that their relationship with food was based out of things like: having a poor relationship with a parent/spouse that they felt rejected by so they over ate because food would never reject them and it was a source of comfort, while others learn that they are unbelievably stronger than they ever thought they were and don't have to be victims for the rest of their lives.
Well, I think I'm learning such a lesson myself (one of many): I have a VERY hard time saying "no" in certain social situations.
Now, I'm not talking about saying no to drugs/alcohol/ or anything that I am truly against- believe me, no problem there! But I have learned lately that I have a hard time turning down social invitations. . .
For example, every Sunday evening I go to a meeting/service around 6pm that lasts until 8:30 that my most tight group of friends is at as well, well unfailingly there are always a few people that mention as we are all leaving the building: "Hey, anyone want to grab something to eat and hang out?" And I swear to you, even if I'm not super hungry, I'm tired and I know I've gotta get up at 5:00am the next morning, I will go. And when I try to answer the question as to WHY I do that- I don't come up with very many good answers.
Not being able to say "no" has been the cause of some of the food choice issues I had the last two weeks and I think these are the 2 factors that feed into the bad decisions:
1) I obviously enjoy hanging out with my friends, and if the whole group is heading to dinner, then I'll head to dinner to hang out with them. I sometimes consider the happiness of my friends over the results that I know their happiness will have on my weightloss.
2) In my conviction to "never deprive myself" on this journey I sometimes say YES too often. I set out on this journey wanting to be realistic with my life and how I think things will work in the long term- knowing that never having a cookie or piece of pizza again just wasn't realistic for me. But somewhere along the line I began thinking that conviction meant that I HAD to say yes to everything or I was depriving myself. Um...HELLO!??
I need to find my inner- "no." And not just to say "no" for the sake of saying it, but I shouldn't be afraid to say it either. Ahhh... I'm gonna test drive my inner "no" out this week and see how it goes :)
Weigh-In Time!
Last Weeks Weight: 314
This Weeks Weight: 311
Making for a... 3lb LOSS!
I made it to the gym this week 4x's (my goal is 5) and ate decently. I'm happy with the 3lbs...only 6lbs away from my April end goal of 305!
So now I'm interested to know... Do you all have a hard time saying NO?
Peace, love, and a happy Monday to you all!
One of the greatest things about this journey is how much you truly learn about yourself. Sure, you are bound (and supposed to) learn what triggers you to binge and why you became overweight in the first place, but there are SO many other lessons learned along the way as well. I've read many blogs by people who have learned on this journey that their relationship with food was based out of things like: having a poor relationship with a parent/spouse that they felt rejected by so they over ate because food would never reject them and it was a source of comfort, while others learn that they are unbelievably stronger than they ever thought they were and don't have to be victims for the rest of their lives.
Well, I think I'm learning such a lesson myself (one of many): I have a VERY hard time saying "no" in certain social situations.
Now, I'm not talking about saying no to drugs/alcohol/ or anything that I am truly against- believe me, no problem there! But I have learned lately that I have a hard time turning down social invitations. . .
For example, every Sunday evening I go to a meeting/service around 6pm that lasts until 8:30 that my most tight group of friends is at as well, well unfailingly there are always a few people that mention as we are all leaving the building: "Hey, anyone want to grab something to eat and hang out?" And I swear to you, even if I'm not super hungry, I'm tired and I know I've gotta get up at 5:00am the next morning, I will go. And when I try to answer the question as to WHY I do that- I don't come up with very many good answers.
Not being able to say "no" has been the cause of some of the food choice issues I had the last two weeks and I think these are the 2 factors that feed into the bad decisions:
1) I obviously enjoy hanging out with my friends, and if the whole group is heading to dinner, then I'll head to dinner to hang out with them. I sometimes consider the happiness of my friends over the results that I know their happiness will have on my weightloss.
2) In my conviction to "never deprive myself" on this journey I sometimes say YES too often. I set out on this journey wanting to be realistic with my life and how I think things will work in the long term- knowing that never having a cookie or piece of pizza again just wasn't realistic for me. But somewhere along the line I began thinking that conviction meant that I HAD to say yes to everything or I was depriving myself. Um...HELLO!??
I need to find my inner- "no." And not just to say "no" for the sake of saying it, but I shouldn't be afraid to say it either. Ahhh... I'm gonna test drive my inner "no" out this week and see how it goes :)
Weigh-In Time!
Last Weeks Weight: 314
This Weeks Weight: 311
Making for a... 3lb LOSS!
I made it to the gym this week 4x's (my goal is 5) and ate decently. I'm happy with the 3lbs...only 6lbs away from my April end goal of 305!
So now I'm interested to know... Do you all have a hard time saying NO?
Peace, love, and a happy Monday to you all!
Saturday, 10 April 2010
Day #99 & #100: How bout a round of applause!!?
Um HOLY COW...
Can you believe that today officially marks the 100th day of 2010?!?
I believe that today is a great day to evaluate how we are really doing on this journey. It seems like not more than a month ago many of us were so excited for the new year to start because we had BIG plans for 2010. I know I did- I set out at the beginning of this year saying...this would be the year that I save my life. And you know what the absolute best thing in the world is- I have stuck to my word.
How many times have we all tried to lose weight previously and failed? For me, it was probably only 2 or 3 but still, I am overwhelmed to the point of tears about just how proud I am of myself for still being here 100 days later, going strong. In fact, I just got back from a killer workout.
I know that it's not typically acceptable to say that "you are proud of yourself" or to pat yourself on the back all of the time, but in this case- I am giving myself a standing and screaming ovation because I HAVEN'T GIVEN UP and I am fighting like hell for my life- the life I deserve.
Sure, there have been moments in the last 100 days that I could have made better decisions in and I'm not saying that they don't matter- because they do; they were learning experiences that I'm using to help make me stronger, healthier, and more aware. To tell you the truth, I don't think there could be a single person who sets out to change something in their lives that in a 100 days time span they wouldn't do a single thing they weren't supremely happy about.
All that to say: If you are still here with me, still fighting, still eating healthy, working out, and giving this your BEST go- then WHOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO! This has NOT been like other times, WE are 100 days in, and we can do 100 more!
On a similar note- I'm guessing like me, part of you might be freaking out inside and be thinking: "Holy crap, we are 100 days in? I have barely done anything- I have a long ways to go if I want to hit my goal by December 31st 2010." Then be encouraged because we aren't even half way there yet and we've got 265 more days to go, to become better, and to make sure that we don't enter the year 2011 with the same freaking goals that we had for 2010.
What a fantastic feeling it is to be able to say that I haven't given up on this, that I don't have to lose my battle with obesity, and that living the life I dreamed of is possible...and it is happening.
Here's to an even better 265- together! :)
Can you believe that today officially marks the 100th day of 2010?!?
I believe that today is a great day to evaluate how we are really doing on this journey. It seems like not more than a month ago many of us were so excited for the new year to start because we had BIG plans for 2010. I know I did- I set out at the beginning of this year saying...this would be the year that I save my life. And you know what the absolute best thing in the world is- I have stuck to my word.
How many times have we all tried to lose weight previously and failed? For me, it was probably only 2 or 3 but still, I am overwhelmed to the point of tears about just how proud I am of myself for still being here 100 days later, going strong. In fact, I just got back from a killer workout.
I know that it's not typically acceptable to say that "you are proud of yourself" or to pat yourself on the back all of the time, but in this case- I am giving myself a standing and screaming ovation because I HAVEN'T GIVEN UP and I am fighting like hell for my life- the life I deserve.
Sure, there have been moments in the last 100 days that I could have made better decisions in and I'm not saying that they don't matter- because they do; they were learning experiences that I'm using to help make me stronger, healthier, and more aware. To tell you the truth, I don't think there could be a single person who sets out to change something in their lives that in a 100 days time span they wouldn't do a single thing they weren't supremely happy about.
All that to say: If you are still here with me, still fighting, still eating healthy, working out, and giving this your BEST go- then WHOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO! This has NOT been like other times, WE are 100 days in, and we can do 100 more!
On a similar note- I'm guessing like me, part of you might be freaking out inside and be thinking: "Holy crap, we are 100 days in? I have barely done anything- I have a long ways to go if I want to hit my goal by December 31st 2010." Then be encouraged because we aren't even half way there yet and we've got 265 more days to go, to become better, and to make sure that we don't enter the year 2011 with the same freaking goals that we had for 2010.
What a fantastic feeling it is to be able to say that I haven't given up on this, that I don't have to lose my battle with obesity, and that living the life I dreamed of is possible...and it is happening.
Here's to an even better 265- together! :)
Thursday, 8 April 2010
Day #97 & #98: A BIG Oops!
Hi friends!
As you know, it is one of my April goals to learn how to eat out in a way that is healthy and controlled, so when a friend and I decided to meet at Olive Garden for dinner yesterday, I made sure to do a few things that have helped me eat healthy when eating out in the past...
- I chose a restaurant where I know there would be healthy alternatives.
- I decided what I wanted to eat before ever stepping foot into the restaurant or looking at the menu.
- I ordered water.
These 3 steps are HUGE ways to at least ensure some success when eating out. So how did I end up doing? Well, here's what I had...
I ordered the soup, salad, and breadsticks with approx 4 servings of salad (w/dressing on the side)
2 bowls of Zuppa Tuscana (which happens to be the BEST soup ever!!!)
and 2 and 1/2 breadsticks (I couldn't resist!)
Well, I left the restaurant feeling pretty good about my choices. I mean, when I first sat down at the table I almost decided to change my original decision to get the soup/salad to getting a pasta dish, but I stayed true and I didn't get a diet coke, which is good thing.
BUT one thing I didn't do before going out yesterday which I should have done was check the nutrition facts of the meal. While not all restaurants make nutritional information available, a LOT of them do and regardless, you can usually find a ballpark figure for calories at the very least. Well, I WISH I had looked up the calorie count of my meal before having eaten it because it would have saved me about 1,775 calories!!?!?! Ummm...wtf?? Yea.
2 servings of Zuppa Tuscana= 340 cals (NOT bad at all!)
2.5 breadsticks= 375 (to be expected)
and then I saw the calorie count for the so called "healthiest of foods" the salad...4 servings= 1,050!!!
O-U-C-H!!!!
In the end, I'm not beating myself up about it- I had good intentions and I really was in control, just not educated.
The next time I hit up the good ol' OG I'll adjust my meal to something like this:
2 servings of salad (minus the croutons and cheese) with dressing on the side, 2 servings of my fav soup, and 1 breadstick. That right there is already saving almost 800 cals!
As you know, it is one of my April goals to learn how to eat out in a way that is healthy and controlled, so when a friend and I decided to meet at Olive Garden for dinner yesterday, I made sure to do a few things that have helped me eat healthy when eating out in the past...
- I chose a restaurant where I know there would be healthy alternatives.
- I decided what I wanted to eat before ever stepping foot into the restaurant or looking at the menu.
- I ordered water.
These 3 steps are HUGE ways to at least ensure some success when eating out. So how did I end up doing? Well, here's what I had...
I ordered the soup, salad, and breadsticks with approx 4 servings of salad (w/dressing on the side)
2 bowls of Zuppa Tuscana (which happens to be the BEST soup ever!!!)
and 2 and 1/2 breadsticks (I couldn't resist!)
Well, I left the restaurant feeling pretty good about my choices. I mean, when I first sat down at the table I almost decided to change my original decision to get the soup/salad to getting a pasta dish, but I stayed true and I didn't get a diet coke, which is good thing.BUT one thing I didn't do before going out yesterday which I should have done was check the nutrition facts of the meal. While not all restaurants make nutritional information available, a LOT of them do and regardless, you can usually find a ballpark figure for calories at the very least. Well, I WISH I had looked up the calorie count of my meal before having eaten it because it would have saved me about 1,775 calories!!?!?! Ummm...wtf?? Yea.
2 servings of Zuppa Tuscana= 340 cals (NOT bad at all!)
2.5 breadsticks= 375 (to be expected)
and then I saw the calorie count for the so called "healthiest of foods" the salad...4 servings= 1,050!!!
O-U-C-H!!!!
In the end, I'm not beating myself up about it- I had good intentions and I really was in control, just not educated.
The next time I hit up the good ol' OG I'll adjust my meal to something like this:
2 servings of salad (minus the croutons and cheese) with dressing on the side, 2 servings of my fav soup, and 1 breadstick. That right there is already saving almost 800 cals!
In fact, check out this link out to see an article that Hungry Girl just posted about the best appetizer, meal, and dessert choices at OG!
Ah well, you and live and you learn right? But I can't lie, it does stink when you have the best of intentions and find out that you consumed a bunch of calories completely on accident!
Has anyone ever done this before?
Either way, I'm pretty sure I worked those breadsticks off though- I probably had the sweatiest workout of my life! I did 30 mins on the elliptical (ummmm heck yes!) followed by 30 minutes on the upright bike! Check me out... :P
Alright ya'll- catch ya on the flip side!
Monday, 5 April 2010
Day #96: I Ain't No April Fool!
Hi kids!
Whew! I'm finally starting to feel like I've got my groove back- and it feels gooooooood!
Don't believe me? Check me out cheezin :)
Whew! I'm finally starting to feel like I've got my groove back- and it feels gooooooood!
Don't believe me? Check me out cheezin :)
Alright so as I shared yesterday, I'm determined to work harder in the month of April than I have any other month- nothing is going to get in my way from doing my VERY best this month!
For April, I've decided to implement some new changes that may not stay permanently, but I'm at least going to give them a try. At this point in my journey I think it's a good idea to shake things up and I'm ready for change! So without further adieu...
My April Goals:
Goal #1: Track food for 1 Month- This has been a goal that has reappeared on my monthly goals at least twice before and that I have yet to reach. I keep going back and forth about whether tracking food is necessary for me, but I've got to be realistic in saying that I know it doesn't HURT me to track so at least for this month, I'm committing to it. I'm not sure that I will be counting calories, but I will at the VERY least right down what I'm eating.
Reward: Arm weights or resistance band.
Goal #2: Put in 4 1/2 hours of cardio each week- Right now I've switched my work out routines from being only treadmill and bike to doing the elliptical and bike- gotta say, I'm still lovin' that elliptical!
Reward: New workout pants!
Goal #3: Weigh no more than 305lbs on April 30th- I was really hoping to get under 300lbs this month but I want to set goals that are realistic too, so I'm thinking losing 9lbs this month is more realistic (yet still super challenging) than trying to lose 15lbs. I'm taking it slow but steady- as long as I get there sooner or later that's all that matters so me!
Reward: New running shoes (*hint hint*)
Goal #4: Try 2 new recipes this month! It's been awhile since I've added anything new to my healthy food repertoire and it's time to add some more variety to my menu. Perhaps I should make sure it includes at least something green? :)
Reward: New yummy food!
Goal #5: Do at least 1 outside & out-of-the box workout this month! Not sure what this will look like yet but I'm thinking volleyball perhaps? I'm ready for some variety and with the beautiful weather we've been having here in PA I have no excuse not to be outside.
Reward: Fun! :)
Goal #6: Successfully learn to eat out in ways that are controlled and healthy. This was by far the biggest downfall that I experienced in the last few weeks but this is not a challenge that will ever just go away so I need to learn how to do this in a way that is practical but doesn't blow all my work!
Reward: Um...losing weight! :)
One final note- lately I feel like I'm constantly trying to play catch up on blogging and on reading the blogs I love and because my life is a bit crazy right now, I'm not able to do either very well. SOOOO, I'm going to be posting every other day and reading/commenting on blogs on the days that I'm not posting. Hopefully this schedule works a little better for me b/c I know that I don't like to read boring/rushed posts which is what I will be putting out if I try and blog every day, but that I also enjoy really reading your blogs and want to make time for that. For my newer readers, if I haven't been able to get around to read your blogs yet, lo siento! I promise that will be happening tomorrow (since I'm posting today!).
So there you have it- I think the reason that I am so determined to make this my best month yet is because this is when I'm tempted to slack the most. I would say that if you feel like you've been tempted to do less than your best than turn that temptation into utter determination to do better than you ever have before.
Let's DO THIS! Here's to a GREAT April!
Day #95: Tiffany the Tantrum Thrower!
Hi Friends!
Ah, it's everyone's favorite day- Mondays!! Lol- not! Actually, Monday's haven't been so bad for me lately because I've been at my new job now for an official week and I'm happier professionally now than I've ever been. I work with a hardcore (and rough) bunch and it's sure to be a challenge but it will be fulfilling and that's all that matters to me.
I am excited to share that April is going to be the best month that I've had yet. As you all know, I have been so frusterated with the decisions that I've been making lately and things that were so easy for me to do previously, have recently because so hard...I have literally been almost frusterated to tears with myself about this and I've been beating my head against the wall trying to find out what in the world triggered this series of bad decisions and temptations to revert back to my old ways...and then it hit me!
Have you ever watched Super Nanny with that English lady named...Jo I think? Well, when she is speaking with the parents of the rotten kids she explains to them that it is simply not enough just to write out new rules or even tell the children that they are expected to abide by a new set of house rules, but that the kids will actually truly know that there is a new sheriff in town when they try and go against the new rules and the parent follows through on what they said. Why is this? Because the kid has probably heard their parent say time and again, "Alright, I'm not going to take this behavior anymore!" or "If you do this again, it's time out for you!" But then out of frusteration, lack of education, or lack of preparation, the parent does not follow through with their plan/threat and the child wins.
Well ladies and gentleman, I am the child that has been trying to buck the system! You see, for the past 4 months I have been the parent that is desperately trying to define and implement a new way of life, and for the most part I have been successful. BUT all of a sudden, the spoiled rotten child inside of me realizes that these new "rules" don't always jive with what I want and I've been "testing" my resolve to see whether I am really going to stick to my guns or not.
I know this might sound a little crazy to some, but I know, for me, it's a fact. How I've been behaving the past 2 weeks has simply been the old, fat, undisciplined Tiffany trying to see if the new, healthy, determined Tiffany is going to stick to her guns. And sadly, I've allowed the old Tiffany's tantrums and fits to get the best of me at times, but guess what? It ain't happening any more! I see what's going on here and no matter how much the old Tiffany wants to kick, scream, and beg for pizza- I'm sticking to what I know is best.
And how should the new Tiffany respond to this trantrum throwing? The same way that any parent is supposed to respond when their child is freaking out about the new rules that have been implemented:
- 1: Remain calm. Don't fret just because the tantrum (or temptation) is happening. Recognize that because the old rules were the protocol for so long, it is understandable for there to be some discomfort and despair when the new ones take precedence.
- 2: Stay consistant. If you give in just because a tantrum is being thrown you are showing a mixed message; stay consistant and sooner or later the child will learn that you mean business and that the new rules are here to stay.
- 3: Be Creative. Come up with ways that can help the rough transition become less painful.
Not sure if this makes sense to anyone else, but it has helped me to recognize what is really going on as well as not be too hard on myself. It's ok and understandable that these last few weeks have been rough- but now that I understand that this was just my old self with her habits and ways that she loved trying to see if she can sneak back in, I'm simply closing the door to that possibility and the new Tiffany is setting up shop for good!
Hope this helps someone else!
Hugs!
Ah, it's everyone's favorite day- Mondays!! Lol- not! Actually, Monday's haven't been so bad for me lately because I've been at my new job now for an official week and I'm happier professionally now than I've ever been. I work with a hardcore (and rough) bunch and it's sure to be a challenge but it will be fulfilling and that's all that matters to me.
I am excited to share that April is going to be the best month that I've had yet. As you all know, I have been so frusterated with the decisions that I've been making lately and things that were so easy for me to do previously, have recently because so hard...I have literally been almost frusterated to tears with myself about this and I've been beating my head against the wall trying to find out what in the world triggered this series of bad decisions and temptations to revert back to my old ways...and then it hit me!
Have you ever watched Super Nanny with that English lady named...Jo I think? Well, when she is speaking with the parents of the rotten kids she explains to them that it is simply not enough just to write out new rules or even tell the children that they are expected to abide by a new set of house rules, but that the kids will actually truly know that there is a new sheriff in town when they try and go against the new rules and the parent follows through on what they said. Why is this? Because the kid has probably heard their parent say time and again, "Alright, I'm not going to take this behavior anymore!" or "If you do this again, it's time out for you!" But then out of frusteration, lack of education, or lack of preparation, the parent does not follow through with their plan/threat and the child wins.
Well ladies and gentleman, I am the child that has been trying to buck the system! You see, for the past 4 months I have been the parent that is desperately trying to define and implement a new way of life, and for the most part I have been successful. BUT all of a sudden, the spoiled rotten child inside of me realizes that these new "rules" don't always jive with what I want and I've been "testing" my resolve to see whether I am really going to stick to my guns or not.
I know this might sound a little crazy to some, but I know, for me, it's a fact. How I've been behaving the past 2 weeks has simply been the old, fat, undisciplined Tiffany trying to see if the new, healthy, determined Tiffany is going to stick to her guns. And sadly, I've allowed the old Tiffany's tantrums and fits to get the best of me at times, but guess what? It ain't happening any more! I see what's going on here and no matter how much the old Tiffany wants to kick, scream, and beg for pizza- I'm sticking to what I know is best.
And how should the new Tiffany respond to this trantrum throwing? The same way that any parent is supposed to respond when their child is freaking out about the new rules that have been implemented:
- 1: Remain calm. Don't fret just because the tantrum (or temptation) is happening. Recognize that because the old rules were the protocol for so long, it is understandable for there to be some discomfort and despair when the new ones take precedence.
- 2: Stay consistant. If you give in just because a tantrum is being thrown you are showing a mixed message; stay consistant and sooner or later the child will learn that you mean business and that the new rules are here to stay.
- 3: Be Creative. Come up with ways that can help the rough transition become less painful.
Not sure if this makes sense to anyone else, but it has helped me to recognize what is really going on as well as not be too hard on myself. It's ok and understandable that these last few weeks have been rough- but now that I understand that this was just my old self with her habits and ways that she loved trying to see if she can sneak back in, I'm simply closing the door to that possibility and the new Tiffany is setting up shop for good!
Hope this helps someone else!
Hugs!
Sunday, 4 April 2010
Day #93 & #94: Weigh In, Measurements, and Easter!
Ahhh weigh in day...
As it would probably be pretty obvious from my last few posts, today's weigh in was not great. In fact, I'm pretty shocked overall.
Last Weeks Weigh In: 310
This Weeks Weigh In: 314
Result: 4lb gain
There's really not much that I'm going to say about that other than, it won't be happening again. I've seen what happens when I don't give this journey my very best and I don't like that outcome, so I'm going make decisions that will lead me to the outcome that I do want- plain and simple.
I also wanted to give a quick update on my measurements for the month of March...overall I saw a difference of 9 inches!
Measurements:
Biceps: Feb- 21'' Mar- 20''
Forearms: Feb- 11.5'' Mar- 11.25''
Neck: Feb- 15'' Mar- 14.5''
Chest: Feb- 49.5'' Mar- 48.5''
Stomach: Feb- 47'' Mar- 46''
Hips: Feb- 57'' Mar- 54.5''
Thighs: Feb- 35.5'', Mar- 34.5''
Calves: Feb-20'' Mar- 20.25
Total Loss for March: -9 inches!
Total Loss from January: -30 inches!
Today I'm just a bit over talking about #'s and such though, I'm ready to start a new week/month tomorrow and will be sharing my April goals very soon!
I did want to say thank you to Kyle and to all the others who have been awarding me with some sweet blog awards- I promise I will get to them ASAP!
Thought I'd leave you all with some pics from an event yesterday that I put on in the community where we will be planting a church in June! We had an Easter Egg Hunt for the community and over 600 people turned out- it was pretty unbelievable! Hope you enjoy the pics!
There were over 7,000 eggs and 21,000 pieces of candy...whew! lots of work!
I couldn't believe all of the people that showed up!
The kids were so stinkin' cute when they were hunting!
It was great weather and I definitely got a sunburn!
Me with the Easter Bunny! :)
Here's to tomorrow being the start of a week where the all prioritize ourselves and our health- I'll be giving it ALL I've got this week!
xoxo
Tiff
As it would probably be pretty obvious from my last few posts, today's weigh in was not great. In fact, I'm pretty shocked overall.
Last Weeks Weigh In: 310
This Weeks Weigh In: 314
Result: 4lb gain
There's really not much that I'm going to say about that other than, it won't be happening again. I've seen what happens when I don't give this journey my very best and I don't like that outcome, so I'm going make decisions that will lead me to the outcome that I do want- plain and simple.
I also wanted to give a quick update on my measurements for the month of March...overall I saw a difference of 9 inches!
Measurements:
Biceps: Feb- 21'' Mar- 20''
Forearms: Feb- 11.5'' Mar- 11.25''
Neck: Feb- 15'' Mar- 14.5''
Chest: Feb- 49.5'' Mar- 48.5''
Stomach: Feb- 47'' Mar- 46''
Hips: Feb- 57'' Mar- 54.5''
Thighs: Feb- 35.5'', Mar- 34.5''
Calves: Feb-20'' Mar- 20.25
Total Loss for March: -9 inches!
Total Loss from January: -30 inches!
Today I'm just a bit over talking about #'s and such though, I'm ready to start a new week/month tomorrow and will be sharing my April goals very soon!
I did want to say thank you to Kyle and to all the others who have been awarding me with some sweet blog awards- I promise I will get to them ASAP!
Thought I'd leave you all with some pics from an event yesterday that I put on in the community where we will be planting a church in June! We had an Easter Egg Hunt for the community and over 600 people turned out- it was pretty unbelievable! Hope you enjoy the pics!
There were over 7,000 eggs and 21,000 pieces of candy...whew! lots of work!
I couldn't believe all of the people that showed up!
The kids were so stinkin' cute when they were hunting!
It was great weather and I definitely got a sunburn!
Me with the Easter Bunny! :)
Here's to tomorrow being the start of a week where the all prioritize ourselves and our health- I'll be giving it ALL I've got this week!
xoxo
Tiff
Thursday, 1 April 2010
Day #91 & #92: WATCH ME.
The biggest change that I've made on this journey is not that I've lost 43lbs or that I've gone from never exercising to working out 5x's a week- no. The biggest change I've made is that I went from being absolutely ignorant to not only what I was doing to my body but why I was doing it to recognizing why I eat and live the way I do and not being able to ignore the way that my body is and what I'm doing to it- in short: the biggest change that has taken place over these past 5 months is that I've become self-aware. Really things like eating healthier, working out, and not giving into the temptation to do the opposite is just an effect of being aware of my feelings and actions and how they effect me.
Ignoring the voice of my body screaming out at me is what got me into the mess I've always seem to find myself in. And lately, I've been plugging my ears yet again. The voice of my body, that I've learned to tune in to, has been screaming: "Tiffany, you really don't need to eat that piece of pizza" but I simply plug my ears thinking, "it's okay- I'm busy and stressed, I'll still lose weight- it's just a piece of pizza."
I can't lie, sometimes I wonder if in my attempt to make sure that I never deprive myself I have given myself too much of a free license to not practice self-control. Well, I can stop wondering because it's true.
I've wanted to say time and time again in this post: "I've had a bad week," or that "I'm not doing so well," but those words don't describe the self-betrayal that I feel.
I'm sure that it must sound like I went on a week long binge or something- which is NOT the case. However, the self-betrayal I'm talking about is due to the fact that I have completely plugged my ears to the voice of my body and heart that is trying to remind me that I cannot put my health last and allow the daily grind to overpower my desire to live the life that I deserve to live.
It just seems like for the past month I have lost that...desire that I once felt so strongly that pushed me on to becoming the better person I've become. It's like I don't care as much.
This truly has been a wake up call for me; and not the kind that seems to come around every Monday after going a bit too crazy on the weekends. Screw that! I REFUSE to give up on all of the hardwork and true changing that I have done over these past 5 months just because I don't feel that extra little motivational spark and because pizza tastes good. It is easy for me to forget the severity of this situation but it looks like I need to remind myself a bit more often.
I know that this is all part of the process and because of this experience I will be able to maintain my goal weight when I get there, so I've learned and I'm moving forward.
Mark my words: I will lose 100lbs this year. I will do a 5k this year. And I will have the bangin' body and healthy life that I've always been meant have.
Nothing and no one is going to stop me- especially not myself. I chose to win, I chose to be strong as nails, I chose to live.
Ignoring the voice of my body screaming out at me is what got me into the mess I've always seem to find myself in. And lately, I've been plugging my ears yet again. The voice of my body, that I've learned to tune in to, has been screaming: "Tiffany, you really don't need to eat that piece of pizza" but I simply plug my ears thinking, "it's okay- I'm busy and stressed, I'll still lose weight- it's just a piece of pizza."
I can't lie, sometimes I wonder if in my attempt to make sure that I never deprive myself I have given myself too much of a free license to not practice self-control. Well, I can stop wondering because it's true.
I've wanted to say time and time again in this post: "I've had a bad week," or that "I'm not doing so well," but those words don't describe the self-betrayal that I feel.
I'm sure that it must sound like I went on a week long binge or something- which is NOT the case. However, the self-betrayal I'm talking about is due to the fact that I have completely plugged my ears to the voice of my body and heart that is trying to remind me that I cannot put my health last and allow the daily grind to overpower my desire to live the life that I deserve to live.
It just seems like for the past month I have lost that...desire that I once felt so strongly that pushed me on to becoming the better person I've become. It's like I don't care as much.
This truly has been a wake up call for me; and not the kind that seems to come around every Monday after going a bit too crazy on the weekends. Screw that! I REFUSE to give up on all of the hardwork and true changing that I have done over these past 5 months just because I don't feel that extra little motivational spark and because pizza tastes good. It is easy for me to forget the severity of this situation but it looks like I need to remind myself a bit more often.
I know that this is all part of the process and because of this experience I will be able to maintain my goal weight when I get there, so I've learned and I'm moving forward.
Mark my words: I will lose 100lbs this year. I will do a 5k this year. And I will have the bangin' body and healthy life that I've always been meant have.
Nothing and no one is going to stop me- especially not myself. I chose to win, I chose to be strong as nails, I chose to live.
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